Two words: Utterly late [for school]. In the morning, I debated whether I should go to school or not for I had this solid pink-red-thing going on with my left eye. It was usually just bloodshot veins from allergies, but this morning’s thing was horrible. There was no white to be seen at all. I was late because I spent the essential minutes sprinting to school reading on ‘pink eyes’.
Clearly, I still went to school, knowing that it was contagious. I was cautious though; I made sure not to infect table tops with my snot nor cough (it says the droplets of mucus are easily transferrable, yuck).
Anyway, I was just looking up the processes of going into university, such as paying tuition and whatnot. It seems I can’t do anything. Joy. Then I spoke to Erin, for she’s to be my best buddy for the next four years. We plan on having the same courses, same times, etc. We’re gonna be tight.
Somehow, our conversation led to talks about suicide, because she was harassing me with the idea of continuing our computer science studies into university, harhar. I didn’t voice, or type this over, but I was thinking: Wow, what a waste it is for people who just goes off to suicide. We watched Prince of Persia: Sands of Time today, right? It was such a waste for a character to die off, no? The Japanese likes their kamikaze attacks, and it’s such a waste of their noble lives, no? If only these emo little kids would go off and at least die of something useful if they’re planning to suicide. Maybe throw themselves into a meat shredder to feed the pigs. Maybe die in a moat/pond/lake/ocean to feed the fish. Go do some suicide mission, like volunteer as a test subject of some crazy experiement. For example: see if humans can survive the intake of xxx at this amount, travel to places that humans of worth don’t want to risk, etc. At the same time, maybe you’ll save some animals who are subjected to ‘animal testing’, for you, with the choice, will be volunteering. Jeez. What a waste. That includes graveyard space. Leave it for those who really needs it. Who’s gonna mourn for some emo kid that suicided. Personally, I’m going to sign that little card that says “use whatever organ or limb possible, that’s left of me, when I die”. At least someone will make use for a little while, of my failing kidneys.
Now, to [re-]read A Streetcar Named Desire.
- Elaine
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